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Thursday, December 29, 2005
Tai Mah---Rest In Peace @
3:16 PM
its all over...i din get 2 c her d last tym...but im going 2 her wake 2dae, 2moro n sat...sat is her funeral...she passed away at 0030...she had a heart attack...n d docs could not save her...she had struggled wif her weak heart 4 quite long...mayb it was a gd thing...mayb mayb mayb...
Tuesday, December 27, 2005
wad wif me??? @
1:19 AM
its jux not worth it izzen it??? im not worth it...i wanna learn it d hard way...but i jux carn seem 2 learn...i dun wanna learn...i dun wanna let go... its hard... suddenly i feel really stupid...i've done many things...so called in d dark...but its not anything bad...it mayb good...but u'll nvr noe... i jux had a sort of freak 'accident' while biking on sunday...it was christmas...wanted 2 gif u a surprise...but i gave up halfway...partly cox of dat freak 'accident'...i failed myself...i had wanted 2 cycle all d way 2 sk...but...since it was christmas...i could not gif any reasons to go out 2 meet anyone...so i planned to go cycling in the evening n den go sk instead...den i went out...n i lyk cycle round d estate 1st...2 sort of get used to d road...n i realised it was sort of peak hour...cox haf alot of cars around... and den i was going down a steep slope..n den lyk i always brake abit abit...den i was on d left of d road...n d prob wif dese estate roads is dat...dere r cars parked on both sides of d road...n den...as i was nearing a Y-shaped split road... a car jux lyk backed out frm a hse...right infront of me...i was lyk shocked...n i suddenly braked...i almost flew forward...cox it was a slope down...n i was leaning alittle forward...i was lucky i din...or else i would haf broken my head...but i jux put both my feet on d ground...n d bike was kinda high...so i could only lean towards my left n put all my weight on d left foot...hoping i could stop in tym... in d end...i did stop jux b4 baging into d car...but i had to fall into a grass patch...if nt i would haf banged into d car...n i would not wan 2 noe wad is d outcome...i only noe dat...d car driver din even notice me i guess...cox he jux came out d drove off...haiz...guess im DAT invisible...i was lucky 2 get away wif a huge bruise on my calf where d pedal had hit into while my foot was draggin on d ground....n oso...a few cuts on my palm...it hurts when i press against sumthing...lyk now...typing in my laptop...but...heck..hu cares..i jux wanna post...lyk anybody will care if i posted or not...haha.. so in d end...i din go until sk...i din even tell my mum wad happened...haha...i only rmb it was horrible...d bike sort of fell on me...n my left leg was caught under it...i dunno if it was hurt or not...but its pain...n a few stupid indians jux sat opp n stare...dam u... n im glad nobody noticed my slight limp...haha...mayb cox 2dae i sat at d same place in d living room practically d whole day...hahaha... so..im sorry if u din get a card frm me dis year...i had actually sent 1 out 2 u earlier...but den i rmb i did not put a stamp...-.=...yea...im getting stupid every year...hahaha...
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1:14 AM
i jux dun get it wads wif u man...everything...u do...it jux doesn't make any sense...u critise ppl because of d way dey act...n y do u act d same way??? i feel u r jux selfish...y do i feel dat way??? can u tell me???
Sunday, December 18, 2005
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1:04 AM
wth...im lyk so dead sia...i haven started typo...n my storyboarding sktchbk only done 1 freaking page out of 46 fucking pages...-.= n d dam production boradmux finish by den...n i hven done my thumbnails...lyk wtf sia...i hate TYPO!!!! dam u...
Thursday, December 15, 2005
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2:07 AM
haiz...feel lyk dam sad sia....y....haiz...i spent quite alot of money 2dae sia.....cox went out wif my sec2 frens....as usual wan loh...dey will try 2 sponge me off....-.= haha...but okok lah...went arcade....n oso went to PUBRC....d steffi's father club....den played pool, Xbox, PS2...haha....wanted 2 play netball....>.< bt ltr nvr play le.....bt quite fun....we fooled around in the room sia...while a few of them were playing game....a few of us behind playing wif d gigatic pillows...LOL...smashing ppl's head wif it...haha....dere were lyk 9 of us...8 sec 2s and 1 graduated....-.= stupid sia....is LY's fault...ask me go 2dae...haha....but dam tired...n i still haven finished my work...im so dead man...haiz....still gt 6 more drawings and that stupid pendulum animation and redo sum parts of d Bouncing Ball and Bowling Ball animation...im sooo gonna do a crash course 2moro sia...haiz...mayb drawing can go skool do on fri...but animation....lyk wtf sia....dam irritating...I HATE ANIMATION!!!!! URGH!!!!
Wednesday, December 14, 2005
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12:45 AM
lyk...wtf...is fucking irritating...u may not know it...cox i won tell it straight in ur face...its jux fucking kns...everything is fucking irritating...d fucking hmwk...d fucking dateline...wtf is wrong wif u ppl man...carn u jux fucking gif us sum tym 2 do it??? its lyk some fucking animation due on friday...when i dun even fucking wanna take animation...is fucking irritating...y force us 2 fucking take it n grill us wif all the shyt when we ain't gonna take dat FUCKING specialisation man...and wad fucking 3D...its lyk...u r teaching so dam fucking fast..u think we all can get it??? n i ain't gonna do dose fucking character design or wadever...n worse of all is d super fucked up typo...wads d fucking use of it...its fucking irritating...wad design...n hafta finish by monday...lyk...FUCK...i haven even fucking finalise my 4 fucking designs man...fuckers man...URGH!!!! and still got alot more drawings 2 b done by friday...again...i've gt alot of work 2 do man...n FUCKING storyboarding...lyk we need 46 fucking pages...for d 3% of our test...fuck man...dammit...im soooo gonna crack under d pressure man...is dere any way 2 help me??? im pissed off lyk crap...coxi dun haf enuff animation paper 2 do d animation oso... kk..im feeling a little beta after writing dis post...n im glad i can miss 2moro's lesson...can stay at hm..n hopefully i will do sum work...>.< ~fucked off~
Friday, December 09, 2005
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12:21 AM
haiz...wad the hell is wrong wif me man... firstly, i kept losing stuff....secondly, gt something is bothering me really badly...which i dunno wad actually...dats d whole prob...it affects me in everything i do...i carn even concentrate on anything dat i do...wads d whole deal man...i gotta try find out wads d prob... on monday i lost a hair pin...n it has sentimental value...>.< so i was dam sad d whol dae...but den i think knew where i dropped it...so i went back dere 2 find it d next morning...n it was still dere!!! haha...i sooo happy...bt den dat dae...which is tues...i lost my ruler....lyk wth...n i nvr found it back...den wed...i could nt find d hairpin...i left it on d table n den gone...sian...n nw...2dae...i lost my eraser...WTF man...wth is wrong...y izzit i keep losing stuff...its dam idiotic man... its tough...but i gotta carry on...since no one is dere 4 me...i shall try 2 go on alone...i've tried b4...bt i failed...n i had 2 turn to sumone else...but den nw...its different...i got really noone to turn 2...so i jux haf 2 keep my head up..try n not think about it...its bad 4 me...n everyone else around me... i keep feeling angry wif myself...4 wadever reason i dunno...lyk its a very scary mood swing...i dun even dare think bout it...hiding in a corner n cry would be a beta idea i guess...n now i dun even haf anything 2 help release my stress...last tym i used to kick soccerball against d wall to relieve my stress n anger...or i go 2 d park near my hse 2 play....nw d ball burst liao...so no more... sian lah...wadever...dam...nw im feeling dam pissed...still gt work 2 do...which i dunno hw...lyk wtf...
Wednesday, December 07, 2005
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1:44 AM
oooh...good lah...now u blocking me out...avoiding me totally is a good idea...cox i think u won need 2 make use of me anymore...since u got wad u wanted in d end...u've got ur gf...its good...fine wif me... Now that you've wringed me dry... like an orange on an orange juicer... squeezed out of every single drop... i've become totally utterly useles... thank you very much... i knew it would lead nowhere... but i continue to believe... i should have believed in myself all this while... then mayb i will never get hurt again... not like the way you stupid guys hurt me over and over again... best...i dun wanna do anything alrdy...dammit u ppl... WHY ARE THE GUYS NOWADAYS SOOOO DAMN GAY???!!!! n B**** frm 7 is ANTY PANTY"S NEW FREN!!! =D
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12:52 AM
omg...its lyk so dam boring...homework n stuff...its starting to pile up...and im 2 lazy to do any work... i've got: - Drawing 20 pages...WTH???!!!! - Photoshop work...stupid DIGI....-.= - Storyboarding - Animation!!! omg...dats lyk sue dis fri...n i 've gt a long way 2 go... i think dats all...hopefully i haf not left out any...LOL... recently i've been addicted to games...n i've downloaded hp games...bt den i cannot always play...cox hp batt very fast low...sian...dunno y sia...lousy batt...lol...n oso i addicted to d games dat i downloaded frm the apple webby onto my mac Dashboard...fun games...but quite lame wan loh...jux click click click...but den get addicted...>.< but anyways...i've been feeling kinda down dese few days stil...i dunno y...i jux had this bad feeling...i jux hope i really wrong man... hopefully my haircut ltr 2dae will make me feel beta oso...-.= n shopping around...loking 4 boxers...LOL...hope 2 haf fun...or else i can die...
Tuesday, December 06, 2005
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12:54 AM
oh man...im sooo bored...i jux dun haf d mood 2 do any work...haiz....maya test sure fail wan...n oso my storyboarding...best lah...kns...n i dun feel lyk slping...jux feeling dam horrible deep inside....its a feeling no one can comprehand....argh...fcuk lah....knn...ccb....wadever...u suck man....i hate u guys....knn....i helped u over n over again...u caused me inconvenience....its nt lyk u even noe it...fuck u...jux fuck off...im dam pissed wif u nw....u took my helpfulness 4 granted...wadever...u will c a change in my attitude 2wards u...i will be more hostile...i won et u hurt me anymore...i won fall into another stupid asshole guy's trap again...jux fuck of...thankyouasshole....
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