probably the craziest party i've ever been to. it was damn awesome! the people were awesome! music was awesome! i haven't danced like that in a really long time. haha!
and the birthday boy was crashed towards the end. he tried to punch me cause some idiot told him to kill me when he was so stoned. HAHA!
i think i lost my voice. my throat hurts so bad cause i screamed too much. and half my sunday is over. omg. my weekend is burnt.
Saturday, August 29, 2009
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11:23 AM
how can the same person break me and make me in matter of minutes?
such a roller coaster of emotions.
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1:20 AM
tell me what should i say so that it will always be the right thing?
i feel like i'm breaking down so much i don't know what else to do. what else can i do to turn all this shit around. i wanna hide in a hole. someone better not put any booze near me tomorrow at the birthday party. i'll drown my sorrows.
my mind's probably too fucked up right now. i don't know what i'm thinking. all i know is i'm too sad. my whole world's smashed. i just felt like someone tore my heart out...cause my chest feels tight i can't breathe normally.
fuckit. i'm going to bed to think about other stuff.
Friday, August 28, 2009
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9:59 PM
i feel like i've failed you.
i'm sorry.
i need some distractions.
Thursday, August 27, 2009
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9:39 PM
i'm so freaking hungry i can actually feel my stomach eating itself inside out.
i'll just go have a bathe and cry myself to sleep cause i'm too tired to do shit.
and yeah well..your message killed me a little inside.
good night.
Wednesday, August 26, 2009
I LOVE YOU! @
11:17 PM
1,2 - 1 2 3 4 give me more lovin then i've ever had. make it all better when i'm feelin sad. tell me that i'm special even when i know i'm not. make me feel good when i hurt so bad. barely gettin mad, im so glad i found you. i love bein around you. you make it easy, as easy as 1 2,(1 2 3 4.) theres only one thing two do three words four you. i love you. (i love you) theres only one way two say those three words and that's what i'll do. i love you. (i love you) give me more lovin from the very start. piece me back together when i fall apart. tell me things you never even tell your closest friends. make me feel good when i hurt so bad. best that i've had. im so glad that i found you. i love bein around you. you make it easy as easy as 1 2,(1 2 3 4.) theres only one thing two do three words four you. i love you. (i love you) theres only one way two say those three words and that's what i'll do. i love you.i love you (i love you) you make it easy, its easy as 1234 theres only one thing two do three words four you i love you (i love you) theres only one way two say those three words thats what ill do i love you (i love you) i love you i love you. one two three four i love you. (iloveyou) i love you (i love you)
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10:54 PM
i'm scared of the future.
it's already week 3 and i haven't got anything done or got my shit together...time flies in a bad way.
but then it gets close to my graduation and i can go back quicker.
i don't know. too many things to do and not enough time.
Tuesday, August 25, 2009
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10:25 PM
this is some fucked up shit.
my head's throbbing like crazy for the past 5 or 6 hours. feels like my brain's pressing against my skull and expanding it every second. maybe i should go to bed soon.
i've got a giant bruise on my knee cause i jumped up onto the stage of a hall and landed on my knee. damn awesome. hurts like crazy and i tried acting cool. haha. and now there's a huge bruise.
Saturday, August 22, 2009
oh my stars. @
9:29 PM
what if you weren't there then what if you didn't stick to me what if you had left earlier what if you weren't so naive what if i didn't speak to you about it what if i kept silent about it what if i hadn't met you on the very first day what if i had kept everything deep down
never let a 'what if' let slip if you know you are gonna regret not acting upon it. even if it is a chance.
i took that chance and never regretted it since. i'm kinda glad it didn't turn out horribly wrong then. if it did, i might have a big regret now. i guess it really depends on how big the risk is also.
thanks for giving me a chance to prove myself wrong about risking it all. i know it doesn't always work cause sometimes i do fail miserably.
i'm tired, my body's tired. and i miss you...
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12:41 PM
i've got a swollen face and lips and my brains are not functioning properly and my body is just numbed. haven't felt like this is a long time...my body is just really really tired but i can't go back to sleep. i only came back home at 5.30am this morning and went to bed at 6am...staring at the sunlight slowly creeping into my room. i was almost awake for 24hours yesterday sia cause i woke up to go school at 9.30am ish...god..the things we do for the love of filming..HAHA!
Thursday, August 20, 2009
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9:30 PM
what if what i have is not what i need? what if what i have is not what i want?
what if you are what i need and what i want, but you are not what i have?
i'm having bad mood swings. blaaaaahhhhh... now i'm not looking forward to filming anymore. cause it's a horrible time and it sucks. i feel bloated and tired. freaking hell...
damn you XX chromosomes.
Wednesday, August 19, 2009
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10:07 PM
suddenly i have heaps to do in these next few days and weeks. alot more things to think about and booking of cameras and looking for actors/actresses. gonna be helping out on a shoot again from this friday to wednesday. gonna be crazy and intense. hope it'll be awesome too. haven't had enough sleep the past few days. slept at 4.30am last night. didn't do much today. my brain kinda feels fried? haha. ah well. i'm gonna be broke again soon. spent abit too much today.
tomorrow's class gonna be awesome. it's RED/35mm/P2 shootout!!! heh. oh well. i don't think anyone knows what's that bunch of stuff..but it's various cameras! 35mm film camera. oh.my.god! haha!
where are youuuu???
Monday, August 17, 2009
Love Quotes @
11:54 PM
Gravitation is not responsible for people falling in love. ~Albert Einstein
You have to walk carefully in the beginning of love; the running across fields into your lover's arms can only come later when you're sure they won't laugh if you trip. ~Jonathan Carroll, "Outside the Dog Museum"
A hundred hearts would be too few To carry all my love for you. ~Author Unknown
For you see, each day I love you more Today more than yesterday and less than tomorrow. ~Rosemonde Gerard
You learn to like someone when you find out what makes them laugh, but you can never truly love someone until you find out what makes them cry. ~Author Unknown
Sometimes we make love with our eyes. Sometimes we make love with our hands. Sometimes we make love with our bodies. Always we make love with our hearts. ~Author Unknown
Soul-mates are people who bring out the best in you. They are not perfect but are always perfect for you. ~Author Unknown
You cannot be lonely if you like the person you're alone with. ~Wayne W. Dyer
If I had a single flower for every time I think about you, I could walk forever in my garden. ~Attributed to Claudia Ghandi
What I need to live has been given to me by the earth. Why I need to live has been given to me by you. ~Author Unknown
and the crappiest of all....
If love is blind, why is lingerie so popular? ~Author Unknown
Sunday, August 16, 2009
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10:45 PM
omg, you freak!! you are killing me!!! argh! wtf. do what you want man. if you really think people will be happy when you kill yourself. i don't know what to say. suit yourself you crazy punk! i can't take anymore depressed people in my life. one of myself is enough...and you? you are like 10 freaking depressed suicidal persons in one!! freaking hell.
Saturday, August 15, 2009
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9:22 PM
maybe you know how much it hurts me inside, but what else can we do about it?
i need you back...only 2 more days.
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5:42 PM
遥远的你，现在还好吗？
Friday, August 14, 2009
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7:38 PM
my feet are hurting really badly. i think i've been walking too much these past few days. and the shoes are not really good. they feel kinda numb and the sole hurt when i walk now. =(
another 2 more days before hell starts and you come back again. i'm tired. i don't have ideas. hate the assignments i have to do now.
Thursday, August 13, 2009
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4:49 PM
wt!!! this was my hair when i first cut it in june. haha. i still think it looked weird. my fringe was really bad, holes at weird places. but then, it was 25 bucks and cut by a trainee. HAHA!
please tell me my cut is better!!! LOL!!
Wednesday, August 12, 2009
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8:59 PM
i'm tired, my head is messed up, my mood is down.
too much to think about, too little time to spend thinking.
another day of school tomorrow. 8.30am-12.30pm. i'm gonna die.
shall try to sleep early tonight.
imissyou.
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1:52 AM
second day of school and not too excited. it sucks cause now i've got work to do already. tomorrow i've gotta head out to get stuff and do some stationary shopping. ah well. i needa think of some 15-30secs visual effects + live action clip for me assignment. gonna be insane!
i cutted my own hair today. just tried to make it in shape and less looking like an exploded hair. but it turned out i did cut away a fair but of hair. the style was still there though. kinda. ah well, i think i like it this way. =D and here's me with the hair i just cut. oh well, it's so you people won't forget how i look like after so long!!! =D
Tuesday, August 11, 2009
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12:03 AM
i just started school today and it is gonna get damn stressful! didn't listen much in class but i heard the brief and it's getting scary! so much stuff to do!
you're leaving tomorrow! and i won't be able to see you for a week or so. hope you'll get a job pretty soon eh. then will be able to stay in sg!!!
ah well, i still wanna know the real you, the person behind the mask. and pull you out of that world you are hiding in. talk to me...
Monday, August 10, 2009
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1:00 AM
today was another day was filming...didn't do much actually i must say. but nevertheless, it was still tiring. wrapped at midnight and got a lift home from a friend. =)
came back and i missed you alot. school is starting in less than 10 hours time and i'm not really looking forward to it. i really need some help doing all these stuff...i'm tired, moody and missing something in my life right now.
Saturday, August 08, 2009
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12:02 AM
happy 21st my best friend!!!
wonder how you are doing now...haven't talked to you in a long time. felt like i have lost touch with you. =/
i miss you friend...
Friday, August 07, 2009
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11:34 PM
suddenly, it hit me that i'm gonna start school again on the coming monday!!! freaking hell! and i haven't even gotten mentally prepared! gosh!
i've got to help out another film shoot this sunday that starts around 2pm and wraps at midnight??? gonna be tired on the first day of school and the brief doesn't even seem that interesting!!! =/
i miss you.
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12:15 AM
我会为我们的未来努力的!!!
Tuesday, August 04, 2009
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11:36 AM
=( i'm cold and hungry and it's raining outside. the sky is gloomy, i feel lonely and gloomy. i don't have anything to eat except instant noodles.
haven't been going on well with the new housemate. maybe it's me not being at home most of the time? but then she shuts her door and keeps herself in her room even when i'm at home. maybe i just have the face that people hate.
i'm going to sit in my room and freeze and be emo today. previous plans down the drain cause it's raining outside.
Monday, August 03, 2009
It's you, I mean it. @
2:45 PM
stuck at home eating a bowl of canned soup and listening to ol skool music like M2M, Westlife, BSB, N'Sync, Spice Girls, Britney...
i'm awesome! =D
i think i'm going to put myself on a diet. haven't been eating much the last few days..only 2 meals a day but i'm still overweight!! omg...
a rose for you!
sorry if it looks shitty. it's my first time making it and i just followed a tutorial on youtube and it doesn't look as nice. my fingers are too fat to do such nimble things. HAHA!
Saturday, August 01, 2009
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4:58 PM
i shall write some crap cause when i came into my own blog i thought i was some cheena person sia. cause there was so much chinese on it. HAHA! and my chinese is fail de can. oh well. i have back pain. i each too much chocolate when i miss you. i packed my room a tad bit. still heaps of stuff around. just rambling on about nothing. too much going on in my mind now. headache.
