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Sunday, October 17, 2010

@ 8:15 PM

The last few days have been a long and hard struggle. Not enough sleep, too tired from work, falling ill. I still have no idea what the lump on my neck is. It's been almost 2 weeks and it's still there. I think I have to go back to the doctor to have it checked out again. The antibiotics didn't help much.

I think I'm half regretting in taking up this feature to work on. Some of the people hasn't been very fun to work with, not that I'm criticizing the way they work, but they really are fucked up sometimes. I don't remember feeling this way when I was working on the 12 Lotus feature 2 years ago. Now I don't even look forward to working. It's like I have to drag myself there everyday. The last 2 or 3 days I just slack around on set. I'm no longer taking initiative or trying to help out much on set unless I hear my name being called to do stuff. I hope it's not a sign that I'm getting tired of being a PA but rather it's just this project.

But I think I'm going to aim to be a good PM in the future. There are too many PMs that I worked with and I hated their attitude and the way they treat people and their PAs.

One last day of shoot tomorrow from 1pm-1am. Though I'm guessing it'll be until sunrise cause there's going to be a small wrap party after the last shoot at Tekong Seafood Restaurant.

But I'm going to be damn moody cause my mei mei puking blood. HAHA! And that doesn't go well with overnight shoot at such a dirty place like the abandoned keat hong camp. Wish me luck.

See you all soon!

Friday, October 15, 2010

@ 5:18 PM

I want to bring you out
I want to hold your hands
I want to make you smile
I want to hear your laughter
I want you to be mine

Wednesday, October 06, 2010

@ 10:07 PM

You always ask me why I can't let go. You always scold me for being stupid. I've tried. It's not that easy. Especially when you no longer have your friends by your side for support. One day you'll understand how I feel when you have no one to turn to and how horrible that feeling is.

Now I can only hate my heart for loving and forgiving so easily. If I was stronger, I would have left with a broken heart and never looking back.