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Thursday, November 30, 2006
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10:21 PM
Sometimes i wonder...what if i said it...what if it really happened to us...would i regret it for life?? would i say sorry and take you back? would you even accept it? if only i could just rurn back time and go back to what we once were...the sweet, happy innocent us...
Sunday, November 26, 2006
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10:09 PM
THANK YOU LOVE!!! thankz for everything... and im falling sick...my nose hurts from sneezing too much...and my throat hurts too...and i just remembered why my nose so runny just now...cause im kinda allergic to fur...and i went dog farm...hahaha...i quite pro eh...like that also can forget...haha...but anyway...i hope the footage turns out alright...all the stuff that we shot is useful..hehe....it was a fun day...the doggies were cute...but kinda scary when they get abit too wild and run around...haha...and one doggy almost peed on the camera bag sia...omg...im never gonna take that bag sia...haha...and thanks to dan lin's dad for driving us around too...haha...
Friday, November 24, 2006
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2:01 AM
we've drifted for far too long...and too far away...haven you realise that??? we can't even communicate...lets just say not even 10 sentences...and then we don't even have time for each other...and no surprises or whatsoever to keep the qing xu in the relationship going strong...sometimes just seeing you i get sian...for what reason i dunno...i just don't feel like talking...or doing anything...i dunno what to think or do anymore...we don't even talk on msn as much as we used too anymore too...we usually chat until late into the night not wanting to sleep...now its like i can feel like sleeping when chatting...we can don't chat for an hour or 2 and i feel its normal...even when i see you online...i always have the urge to chat with you last time...now its like i will think you are busy with your work and i just ignore u... i wanna talk to you on the phone for hours like we used to...i wanna feel anxious whenever i get to meet you...i wanna feel loved once again...please help me find back all those special feelings i had for you...maybe if you try one more step...other than only 'seeing me is enough'...i don't wanna have anymore sleepless nights...i wanna be myself again...the same old happy-go-lucky self... maybe it is really time already...whatever thats happening now is just putting a strain on everyone... maybe i should have just listened to that someone's advice...or maybe its just im too uninitiated too...i used to try to do stuff to try to surprise you...but i just don't anymore...
Wednesday, November 22, 2006
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11:40 PM
im so happy!!! omg....im like shocked, happy and speechless...thankz to you all who gave me this wonderfully memorable 18th birthday...met all the important friends and people in my life today...its like a dream come true...haha...when i first went to school this morning i didn't even expect much...i was glad that so many people wished me happy birthday early in the morning liao...then went vivocity to catch a movie...planned to watch happy feet de...but than too late liao...then alot of people need go off le...so we watched Time instead...which is a disgustingly bloody movie....with alot of bloody scenes of people having plastic surgery...which i think is much worse than normal surgery sia...ewwww....and its y 2st M18 show on my birthday!!! im legal!!! yeah!!! and the guy selling the tix saw my IC then was like commenting something like 'oh...your birthday today" or something like that...lol...weird...and than vivocity the cinemas go in once is like connected to all the other halls...like that you can like go in one liao finish go another one....LOL...cool...movie marathon...don't think they will check also anyway...since we were like inside the movie hall areas liao and they check the tix liao...hehe.... then later we went off to grab some food....then dan lin went off le....so we walked to habourfront center to eat subway...first time trying and i think its not bad...hehe...the guy is like super friendly also...lol...and funny...with blue contacts...weird...hahaha....then sit there rot awhile liao...kien called sia....i shocked sia...haha...then she ask if i was at vivocity and she sounded like dam gan cheong sia...she told me she left her jacket at somewhere at the roof garden and see if i can help her find it...lol...then ask me go alone...-.= then my friends say all go loh...go see see...haha...then ting say she want find bf.......so she, shiqin and yani went off...serene went with me....haha....then went around to find...but nothing sia...then i call her say don't have...she ask me wait there....then serene say they gonna come find me to give me surprise...then i say fake wan....i didn't even believe her sia...cause kien sounded really gan cheong about losing her jacket over the phone sia......then i got tricked......and serene bet 10 bucks with me that they gonna surprise me...=/ then i got the surprise liao they went off so fast....=/ sorry sia...never go alone...lol...i thought got my friend can help find the jacket faster....lol....=/ ten went back up to find ting they all...and they bought me a piece of cake from breadtalk....=p surprised, shocked, happy...hahaha...and made me take the candle and happy birthday the sign out of the cake using my mouth....lol....then they made me open the presents...haha....then when i saw the book...and i was flipping through it randomly...i felt tears well up in my eyes sia...like touched...and all the memories start flooding back to me...haha...i was damn touched...the effort you put into it...all the happy memories...all the things you do for me also...im just really really glad i have such a great friend in you... thankz all who wished me...serene, ting, shiqin, yani, dan lin, yen lyng, jie ying, wee teng, ~mui+, kien, liang yu and dear....and some unexpected people...like siowhong, perry, qian yun, melissa....hehe....and my dad, mum, sisi, aunt....my papa was so cute!!! he pasted a photo of myself taken at the dinner on sunday on my laptop screen sia...hahaha....and he write happy birthday...so cute!! hehe...and thankz mummy 4 sending my phone to me in school...hehe... and i was kinda happy to meet him at nite when i was going home...then i was abit kinda sad and disappointed after he said something...but then after awhile i was ok le...cause i think of happy thoughts that happened to me today...haha...anyway...i didn't expect much also...so well...maybe i should have expected it anyway....my friends made me very very happy and i guess im very happy le...=) i still love you anyway....
Tuesday, November 21, 2006
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9:02 PM
why!!! why did this have to happen to me on this day...its our special day...and its one day before my birthday...but im feeling super lousy...i dunno what to feel anymore...i hate this feeling!!! i wanna be happy too!!! but i can't!!! im just looking forward to tomorrow...watching happy feet with my classmates i think...im wanna feel better...but i think now i feel like dying...fuck...today its just like another aimless random day...i don't even know what i was thinking or even doing for most of the evening and night...i just walk around...and i feel like walking in the rain...i feel like screaming out loud...i can't take all this pressure anymore...and im just hurting the people around me...hell i should just disappear...
Saturday, November 18, 2006
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10:03 AM
omg...yesterday i had to sleep downstairs on the couch at first...then later i went into my dad's hi-fi room to sleep...cause my bro locked the door and i cannot go in...actually i can go in from my aunt's room cox the toilet is common...but then she locked her door and went to bathe also...then after that i came down and wanted to rest awhile...but i slept...and when i suddenly woke up...already like 4plus...and i went up to check...she already went to sleep... =( so i had to go my dad's hi-fi room sleep...no bolster for me.......and i woke up every 2 hours sia...6am i woke up and saw outside got lights and heard my dad liao...then 8 plus my mum woke me up...ask me go back upstairs sleep...but then i too wide awake liao...went upstairs cannot sleep le...=/
Friday, November 17, 2006
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8:22 PM
if you don't even bother, why should i even give fucking care about you anymore??? and if you think i always get worked up over small little things or if im so petty...its because i care!!! if you don't appreciate it then it fine...just tell me so...then i don't have to waste my energy...and i don't want people to think that im trying to control your whole life... and oh...i've got short hair again...haha...and my bro can't even tell the difference even after i told him i cut my hair...haha...seems like he oso nvr really notice me wan sia...haha... im gonna look for food now...
Tuesday, November 14, 2006
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8:22 PM
this is all getting more boring and and monotonous...there is no excitement and surprise in this anymore...haiz...but why do i feel this way? maybe we really have distanced...but i can't help it...its just the same everytime...i feel it just doesn't hold the same meaning for me anymore...i dunno...i don't wanna know...its pointless....blahhhh.... still got 3D modelling and editting to hand in and today got new assignment liao...magazine story....sian...and i need actor and actress....
Monday, November 13, 2006
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12:56 AM
im sorry...sorry for starting all this...i never wanted all these to end this way...i've gotta move on...i don't wanna make the same stupid mistakes again...
Saturday, November 11, 2006
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1:31 AM
yay!! today is a nice day...cause i manage to meet those people whom i missed so much...=p but im very tired now le...haha...walked quite alot...had lotsa laughs, fun and sun...hehe...gonna upload some pics 2moro...now too tired...and i bought a new sling bag!!! its a laptop bag too and its damn nice!!! its $69 though...my aunt say can claim from her company...haha...cause she gonna say it for her laptop and it for work...i didn't know like that also can sia..hehe...yay!!! but im still happy...finally got new bag...my fave sling bag broke liao...then another one which i bought from thailand already spoil for quite long le...hehe...maybe this year end go hong kong and thailand can buy more stuff...hehe...more bags too...lol...  and my bro got his Creative Zen V Plus...haha...its like damn cute!!! omg...haha...so small...'Small is the new beautiful' hahaha....guess he's quite happy now cause he finally gets his mp3 player after waiting for so long...since his birthday...that's like more than 1 mth...hehe...and it is 10 bucks cheaper than creative stores loh...so if you wanna get one too...go to Mustafa...hahaha...there got good bargains for the electronics....today is a great day and i've not done any work...lol...time to rush some work 2moro...hehe...
Friday, November 10, 2006
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12:11 AM
god dammit...i fucking give up liao...i can never please everyone...and this whole fucking string of events happens all because of me...a small problem lead to a bigger problem...dammit...if i knew...i should have fucking kept my mouth shut in the first place...i'd rather suffer myself then see all my friends ao unhappy and troubled by all this...its just straining...additional stress...dammit... i wanna dig a hole and hide forever...i wish this never happened...what can i do to wish all this never happened??? i don't want to hurt anyone...and i just want everybody to be happy...like before...one big happy family??? =( all these responsibilties all weigh on my shoulders...i can't take it any longer...im sorry i caused all this crap and misery to you...but i feel much worse....
Thursday, November 09, 2006
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10:55 PM
yay!!! happy...hehe...but still stressed...lol...thankz for waiting for me until so late...and sending me home after that even though you were so tired already... =) and i still got alot to do for producing...and Cp4 and producing assignment 2....and editing and 3D...omg...wth....
Monday, November 06, 2006
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11:40 PM
this is not going to help right??? like honestly??? `hyperventilation~
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7:05 PM
zZzZzZzZz....today rain...feel depress...haha...that's what they say about rain anyway...make people feel down...crap...suddenly feel emo...-.= cannot do work today liao...die.... `ignorance WAS a bliss~
Saturday, November 04, 2006
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6:38 PM
ZzzzzzZzzz...went to cycle for about 45mins...i must lose weight before december 15th...before i go hong kong and thailand...if not im gonna be overweight when i come back...lol...so now im officially on a diet...and my target is 50kg sia...=/ and i cycled to amk to pay my phone bill at the same time...haha...and amk so many people sia...omg...haha...like damn crowded...i cycle along the walkway also scared bang into people sia...then in the end i gave up i pushed my bike instead...hahaha....and i had many near accidents...haha...i chiong past red lights...blinking green man...then when i reaching home that time i was opposite then got traffic lights mah...then i cannot press in time...then i geh kiang red man i just chiong...=/ then i just go onto the road only the red lights liao...that means the cars were going to go le...then i cycle like mad sia....then just reach opposite pavement green light....=/ then cars zoom past my back...give me a shock of my life sia...omg...haha... just hope the next few days i got time to go cycle also sia...but work is piling up...sian...-.=
Friday, November 03, 2006
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10:48 PM
wah seh...jux read the school email...and now we are official known as the School of Interactive & Digital Media (SIDM). This new school will house diplomas in DMD, DET, Motion Graphics & Broadcast Design and Specialist Diploma in Games Development. lol...that was quoted from the email...and where does that put DFV??? omg...and im so not going to tell people im from SIDM...cause its like so unheard of sia...-.= SDN also easier to say loh...after that they ask what SIDM stand for im going to be like errrr....i can't remember...-.= anyway...now people ask i jux say im studying film loh...cause if i say digital media design...they assume i can draw well...and im into animations and stuff...hahaha...and now we have to vote for our new lanyard colour...but i like orange!!! why!!! why they want change the colour!!! orange is like to designer-like (to me) cause its bright, its attractive and sometimes eccentric...thats what design people are mah...lol...we had to choose from a few colours...lime green, olive green, shocking pink, charcoal black, brown and silver...weird colours??? brown is like so out sia...like so boring...silver is like weird??? ever seen before silver lanyard?? doubt it even exist...probably it'll look like grey sia...lol...or when we wear the color will like drop den we will have silver necks...-.= and shocking is like woah...its like attention seeking...but then i don't like pink leh...and must spare a thought for the guys...haha...black is quite normal lah...but then no school has black loh....so it'll be cool...haha...and i almost voted for lime green...cause i like bright colours and lime green is one of my favourite colours too...but....i think the health sciences people have green lanyard...and i don't want get mixed up with them sia.......so i chose black loh...safer...and since pink has quite a lot of votes also...had to push black up...lol... but anyway...DFV where got wear lanyard de!!! lol...so it doesn't really bother me...hahahaha....and i shall still use the orange lanyard no what colour gets choosen...cause i still remain a part of SDN...=) since SIDM does not include DFV...hahaha... and i think i burned my tongue or something...the tip hurts...=( the tastbuds look like they are swollen or something and its very uncomfortable...=/
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10:06 PM
crap...got so much work to do...jialat...today didn't do much work also loh...then went out with him watch Flushed Away...sorry ~mui+...wanted to reserve to watch with you de...but then if i didn't watch Flushed Away...i would have to watch Grudge 2....which is like no way im going watch that show...=/ and then the theater is like only got 10 people sia...omg...and half of the people are kids...two adults brought 5 kids sia...looks like a layd plus the maid...still got pram sia...-.= and then went to eat KFC...tried that fish and chips...omg...not nice wan!!! =( then is like quite pathetic sia the portion...bought the buddy meal with the two piece chicken wan loh...then he gave me one piece...and i managed to finish them up...either im that hungry from waiting or the fish and chips is really not filling wan sia...and he queued for almost 20mins sia...-.= then he say he eat KFC will giddy...-.= next time i must remember not to go KFC with him...haha...then after that walked to the opposite bus stop and i took bus home...and he took the bus before mine...haha...seeing him so tired...also no choice loh...ask him go home first...don't need send me home le....blahhhhhhhh....anyway its been awhile since he sent me home...except maybe ytd when we went toa payoh loh....-.= anyway i've gotta have to start on my script soon...if not next thurs i will die...
Thursday, November 02, 2006
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1:46 AM
grrr...stupid internet connection...wth...wireless is like so unstable sia...crap...sian...den im so stressed....stress den i keep eating...=( yay!! auntie is back...hehe...
Wednesday, November 01, 2006
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12:18 AM
nothing much happened today...just that i know now that got alot of work to do...=( stupid producing....blahhh...and only got 2 weeks to finish up like 18 pages of script breakdown, budget list and other stuff...forgot le...and still got directing script...trying to think of story...and also the marketing e-learning...also dunno go where to do sia...haha....now its the 1st of november le...haha...so fast november...haha...gonna be 18 soon....hehe...actually not really...still got 22 days sia...-.= i wanna watch M18 shows wan loh... The OH in Ohio...by then also over liao sia... =( anyway...read my horoscope from 8 days for this month...and im scorpio this month...lol... Scorpio is the deepest of all the signs. Scorpio types develop passionate interests and devotion to causes which they pursue with death-defying dedication. Those under this sign have an instinctive sense of what is right and wrong. They fall deeply in love, but if hurt or rejected, can spend hours plotting bitter revenge. haha...seems kinda true for some parts...probably only the last sentence i suppose...haha...im vengeful... =)
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