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Friday, March 31, 2006

Orientation... @ 12:30 AM

freshies were super duper dao n quiet the first...but towards the still quiet...which got me really pissed and nearl blow my top...but i carn say anything sia...that sux...hell yeah...at least today they like super bond when we let them do the stuff and discuss on their own...

and they stand up for us!!! damn touching sia...haha... =D today is really a great and fun day...except for the de-briefing...ytd n today...which is a waste of time and effort and everything...and everybody mood just dropped...the games people are practically blaming all the OGLs...like wtf can...we had a really tough job of taking care of the freshies...and some of them give us attitude...you all think that is easy??? you think running aound with freshies and stuff is easy???come on lah...i carn say games have it easy too...but you carn sae OGLs job are like so easy can...we have to take care of them for 3 whole days...and u carn even let all ur station masters do the game fairly and properly...and u blame us when not all the freshies can hear the explaination of the games???? its so damn obvious you carn control it and end up blaming us...i think we OGLs did a very good job...we made them laugh as a class...talk as one voice...and unite as a whole...its very hard to do that you know...

SO stop talking to us like you wanna fight and blame everything on us...late also blame us...wrong place also blame us...let me tell you...is all GAMES people fault can...esp the ic...please take into consideration that we OGLs are humans and have feelings and humans don't like to be blamed or everything and anything which its not even their fault...blame yourself for not giving clear instructions and not informing everybody...and not briefing everybody...esp us OGLs...you din even check if all the OGLs from each group is there...and you gone ahead and completed you briefing...and when i asked what was the stuff u briefed the rest about...you just told me to go which station first...wth is that kind of attitude...

the minute you raise you hand to volunteer to be the games IC...you should know that its your responsibility to make sure all the games go on smoothly without any cock ups...which is the best...but at least make it as little screw up as possible lah...and don't blame everybody else when ur stuff screws up...please be more responsible can...and i don't see you admitting ur faults as fast as you raised your hands to volunteer to be the games ic...

Monday, March 27, 2006

birthday @ 12:04 AM

celebrated my dad's birthday today...and i haven even got his present sia..omg...haha...anyway...today's lunch was nice...went to some Park Royal hotel or sumthing...got quite a spread...and i ate alot...till i felt fat...lol...everything is nice...took many photos...and took one funny photo at Centerpoint...i think its cool...i shall upload it another time...since it so troublesome...i hafta bluetooth the pics into my laptop...then transfer using my thumbdrive from my laptop into my com and upload...-.= thats why sometimes got alot of photos at one short...haha...so sian...bleh...nobody online to chat with...

Sunday, March 26, 2006

Bedroom... @ 12:35 AM

view from my bedin the early morning...taken just after i woke up...and lazy to get down from bed...probably explains the angle of the shots...haha...

OGL meeting @ 12:26 AM

had OGL meeting on friday...and we stayed in scholl for more then 12 hours i think...i had posted the stuff on that day alrdy...so i shall not elaborate much...im just posting the picture that i took on that day...its some random pics...haha...

Suntec City @ 12:14 AM

picture taken from Suntec City Fountain of Wealth...largest water fountain loh...haha...its a pity don't have the laser shows...haha...if not can take more pictures...anyway...it was a nice day...with nice memories...

Saturday, March 25, 2006

Fun Fair @ 11:55 PM

haha...i know that looks kinda gross...but it was my bro's idea...i swear...rofl...to see the actual thingy...scroll down...heh heh...
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ahha...its a heart shape balloon hor!!! though that dun look that heart shape anymore...cox the helium is gone...haha...well...anyway...bought that from a church fun fair in sec school...-.=

slack... @ 1:20 AM

damn...i dead beat...im tired...im sleepy...but im lazy too...i had fun today though...i played the whole day...and slacked the whole day...made a 'new' friend today...hur hur...i was bored at most of the day though...but luckily got slacking people too...and we sat together to chat...haha...did some stupid stuff today...and ran away from flying water bombs...my back hurts dam badly...dammit...

Thursday, March 23, 2006

today... @ 11:07 PM

today was a nice day...some how...i felt kinda strange around strangers...haha...and watched a movie today...Failure to Launch...its kinda nice show...and i made many stupid mistakes today...like offing the com but forgot to take out the cd...twice somemore...once on my com...the other time in my laptop...and i brought an empty cd case!!! omg...anyway...i carn elaborate that much...cause im stealing come time from my sisi...she is downstairs talking on the phone...and left the com on...wuahaha...so im making good use of the connection...hoho...hope she talks longer...=D

and to TING...PLEASE BE STRONG and don't ever have a mental breakdown...take care...you are my OGL partner man...nothing must happen to you...and you must help me bully the freshies!!! =D

Wednesday, March 22, 2006

bored... @ 10:36 PM

i shall blog again...since im so bored...its the dunno how many times i've blogged today...3rd time i think...haha...its doesn't matter...i suddenly realise there ain't anything to do on the net nowadays...and im too lazy to look for a nice skin...or make one...and make the html codes...blah...

There was a time when
i thought i knew you
i thought i could read your mind
i thought i could share your joys and sorrows
i thought i could stand by you always
i thought i would never be the one to hurt you
and you could seek comfort in me anytime

never did i realise im wrong
i made you angry
i made you cry
i made a promise
but never kept it

you could live without me
but i could never live without you
i can't imagine how far we've come to
and you are the key to my life

@ 10:23 PM

Kelly Pickler and Ace Young

The person you need is Catherine McPhee~~~

=( @ 10:10 PM

blah blah black sheep...i guess i really hate holidays the most...i dunno why sia...i always sit at home stare at tv and rot...and worse is i eat alot...dam...i dun wanna be fat...blah...and worse is i dun have any vcds to watch...dammit...and afternoon shows sux...only evening...like wth...i should try cycle all the way to malaysia and back...bla...

Yawnz... @ 6:00 PM

i've been yawning the whole day sia...dunno why so tired sia...haha...and for the first time since my holidays started im not slacking...today's my first day of work....hur hur...though i dunno want go back tomorrow anot sia...my nose gonna run away sia...i've been smelling books that have turned yellow the whole day...lol...and im allergic to dust...bleah...that sux...but if i stay at home...i got nothing to do also...haiz...sian..how??? so lazy man...

my results suck big time...haha...

i hope next year will be a better year in every way...hohoho...

Tuesday, March 21, 2006

@ 1:27 AM

well...sometimes i think i understand you very well...sometimes i think i totally have no idea what you are feeling...and maybe i ain't observant enough or concern enough...i can never tell what is going on around me...what my friends are thinking or feeling...haha...

i guess a stranger understands you more...and i guess a stranger understands me better than myself...i carn believe how useless i am as a friend...haha...i carn even help...

@ 12:00 AM

Artist: Spice Girls
Song: Goodbye

There will come a day

When you will be able

Able to say

Nevermind the pain

All the aggravation

You know theres a better way for you and me to be

Look for a rainbow in every storm

Fly like an angel heaven sent to me

Goodbye my friend

I know your going searching although i can still feel ya here

It's not the end

You gotta keep it strong before the pains turn into fear

So glad we made it

Time will never change it, no no no (no no no no no)

Just a little love

Big imagination

Never let no one take it away

Went into the world (into the world)

What a revelation

She found there's a better way

For you and me to be

Look for the rainbow in every storm

Find out for certain

Loves gonna be there for you

You'll always be someone's baby

Goodbye my friend,

I know your going searching although i can still feel ya here

It's not the end

You gotta keep it strong before the pain turns into fear

So glad we made it

Time will never change it no no no (no no no no)

You know its time to say goodbye (no no no no)

The times when we would play about

The way we used to scream and shout

We never dreamt you'd go your own sweet way

Look for the rainbow in every storm

Find out for certain

Love is gonna be there for you

You'll always be someones baby

Goodbye my friend

I know you going searching although i can still feel ya here

It's not the end

You gotta keep it strong before the pain turns into fear

So glad we made it

Time will never never ever change it (no no no no)

You know it's time to say goodbye (no no no no)

And don't forget you can rely (no no no no)

You know it's to say goodbye

And don't forget on me you can rely (no no no no)

I will help you help you on your way (no no no no)

I will be with you everyday (no no no no)

Monday, March 20, 2006

=D @ 11:31 PM

~i promise i'll never let any guy come between us sisters~

Yours, Mine & Ours... @ 10:26 PM

had OGL meeting today...and im the OGL of group 2...with ting...haha...we are slacking members sia...i think only about 10 people are not in any committee sia...how cool...well...and i met 3 people i know today...haha...and i only said hi to 2 of them...lol...i met Ms Lum on my way home at amk sia...then we took the same train...only after awhile then i realised i was walking behind her sia...lol...but i didn't go talk to her...haha...and i met Mr Edwin...at suntec...omg!!! rofl...he is the last person i expected to see outside of school...hur hur...

hohoho...the show is dam funny lah...omg...haha...and touching too...i laughed until very hard sia at some parts...lol...its a good show for a good laugh...and i ate junk food the whole day...and im soooo full now...

a memorable day yet again...loved the lights... =D

'If the lighthouse light is always on, you'll know that my heart will always be with you'

Sunday, March 19, 2006

blah blah... @ 3:55 PM

im bored...and my parents coming back tonight liao...haha...cool...played Worms 2 the whole morning and i suck at it man...i keep losing sia...and committing suicide...hohoho...i think im gonna go watch Tarzan and Jane 2 soon...haha...

and thankz smellybelly for the cd...hoho...it had some of the songs i was looking for awhile ago...but forgot about them...weee~~~

~strangers confuse me~
~i confuse myself~

If I Let You Go - Westlife @ 3:41 PM

Day after day

Time passed away

And I just can't get you off my mind

Nobody knows, I hide it inside

I keep on searching but I can't find

The courage to show to letting you know

I've never felt so much love before

And once again I'm thinking about

Taking the easy way out

But if I let you go I will never know

What my life would be holding you close to me

Will I ever see you smiling back at me (oh yeah)

How will i know

If I let you go?

Night after night I hear myself say

Why can't this feeling just fade away

There's no one like you (no one like you)

You speak to my heart (speak to my heart)

It's such a shame we are worlds apart

I'm too shy to ask, I'm too proud to lose

But sooner or later i gotta choose

And once again i'm thinking about

Taking the easy way out

But if I let you go I will never know

What my life would be, holding you close to me

Will i ever see you smiling back at me?

How will i know

If i let you go?

If I let u go ooooh baby

Ooooooooohhhh

Once again I'm thinking about

Taking the easy way out

Ooooooooohhhh

But if I let you go

I will never know

What my life would be, holding you close to me

( close to me)

Will I ever see you smiling back at me?

( oh yeah)

How will I know

( if I let you go?)

But if I let you go

I will never know

( oh baby)

Will I ever see you smiling back at me?

( oh yeah)

How will I know

if I let you go ?

Miss You Finally - Trademark @ 3:31 PM

But I miss you finally

Try to remember all these years

We shared the love we shared the tears

Thought that forever it would be

I realize you lie to me

I still hold on

Still dream of days when we were one

You played with my heart

You played with my mind

But I miss you finally

Right from the start

My love made me blind

But I miss you finally

All of these promises you made

This 4 letter word it seems to...

Baby it's hard to understand

Now that you're gone

We reached the end

I still believe

Still dream of days when we were one

You played with my heart

You played with my mind

But I miss you finally

Right from the start

My love made me blind

But I miss you finally

All of these promises you made

This 4 letter word it seems to...

Baby it's hard to understand

Now that you're gone

We reached the end

I still believe

Still dream of days when we were one

You played with my heart

You played with my mind

But I miss you finally

Right from the start

My love made me blind

But I miss you finally

All of these promises you made

This 4 letter word it seems to...

Baby it's hard to understand

Now that you're gone

We reached the end

I still believe

Still dream of days when we were one

You played with my heart

You played with my mind

Right from the start

My love made me blind

Ghost of You And Me - Bbmak @ 3:23 PM

With all these blues

Haunting me, everywhere, no matter what I do

Watching the candle flicker out in the evening glow

I cant let go

When will this night be over

I didn't mean to fall in love with you

And baby there's a name for what you put me through

It isn't love, it's robbery

I'm sleeping with the ghost of you and me

Seen a lot of broken hearts go sailing by

Phantom ships, lost at sea

And one of them is mine

Raising my glass, I sing a toast to the midnight sky

I wonder why

The stars don't seem to guide me

I didn't mean to fall in love with you

And baby there's a name for what you put me through

It isn't love, it's robbery

I'm sleeping with the ghost of you and me

The ghost of you and me

When will it set me free

I hear the voices call

Following footsteps down the hall

Trying to save what's left of my heart and soul

Watching the candle flicker out in the evening glow

I can't let go

When will this night be over

I didn't mean to fall in love with you

And baby there's a name for what you put me through

It isn't love, it's robbery

I'm sleeping with the ghost of you and me

I didn't mean to fall in love with you

And baby there's a name for what you put me through

It isn't love, it's robbery

I'm sleeping with the ghost of you and me

Friday, March 17, 2006

WonderFULL day!!! =D @ 11:26 PM

and FULL literally...lol...my stomach gonna explode...rofl...i carn believe i ate so much stuff today!!! omg...i suddenly feel so dam pig...lol...smellybelly and smellykelly cooked for me...hur hur...=D and we played metal slug 5...lol...and then...at the most exciting part...when fighting the final enemy........i pressed the restart button!!! OMG!!! lol...got so excited and pressed the button...lol...so dumb...hur hur...and smellybelly and me stare at the com...then i suddenly realised i restarted the game...rofl...then the other smelly fellow keep laffing like some kuku...hohoho...

ate instant porridge, instant pasta, instant sausages, instant otah, instant campbell soup and instant tuna...lol...gonna get killed by MSG and preservatives soon...lol...and they cleaned my dad's pool...lol...fished out all the leaves...haha...end up the pool became so clean sia...lol...

All in all...it was a great day!!! woohoo~~~

cycled from my house to yck mrt in 15mins...how cool...i should have done that like how long ago...then don't need always leave hse 1 hour earlier...

=D @ 9:24 AM

omg!!! i missed my blog!!! lol...only now then have chance go come online...i think i haven got a chance to come online for a few days liao...haha...cause...everytime is my bro use the whole day...and then my sis take over and use until in the middle of the night...so sian...and also...everyday OGL camp ends at 9 plus...reached home liao already 10 plus going 11...dam tired sia...n ytd end early...but then dam tired...but den carn rest also...then i carn watch my SUV sia...i only watched like 10 mins of it...and then fell asleep infront of the TV again...wed also sia...watch the America's Top Model then going results that time i fell asleep...sian...haha...

anyways...the camp was really fun..meet alot of new friends...some of which i don't like...haha...some of which i really really don't like...and some of which i should totally avoid...lol...and on the 2nd day...since we lost the games...the last game was the deciding game and we lost...so we had to drink some super gross, disgusting and horrible tasting drink...which was a concoction of lemon juice, soursop juice, fermented tofu (those eaten with porridge), wasabi and soy sauce i think...its really lyk wtf...the taste is so dam gross...and den when i drank it...there was a lump of wasabi in it...n my nose hurt immediately after the wasabi went down...dam gross...haha...but after eating the dinner down and it was better...haha...i will never drink another of those stuff again sia...although some says it smells like carrot juice...but it totally doesn't taste like that sia...lol...

Tuesday, March 14, 2006

freak... @ 10:39 PM

its a freaking day...i've never told as many white lies in just 5mins in my entire life before...maybe i should not feel so guilty for myself...i've been really kind and i've always shown a black card...haha...nobody will know what it means...cause nobody went to the OGL camp from our group today...except me...i dunno if i should feel disappointed with them or angry at myself for being so dumb...

i was the only person from group 8 that turned up today...and i stood there for almost 2hours like some stupid kuku ass...i don't even know anyone...and given my shy nature...im very afraid to approach people as much as i want to...i just don't have to guards to talk to people...but that aside...people came and asked me my name...but i still felt kuku...everybody is asking if my class only i joined or how come only i came...how could i answer for the whole class??? i don't even know the freaking reason!!! and worse is...when i saw the attendance list...i realised that our group has the most number of people who joined!!! imagine how i felt...but i just had to sit there alone and let people think im anti-social...but whatever...at least i made new friends today...and i had fun...

and...at the end of the day...i even took the initiative to ask the president about you guys...those who ps me today...if you all could still attend the camp tommorrow...though we already split up into teams...and in the end...i had to stay in school for at least another an hour after everybody else (the year 1 OGLs) left to call each of you up and confirm if you all are gonna turn up...and some of you gave me stupid excuses and ask if don't turn up for OGl camp still can be OGLs anot...what kind of stupid question is that??? i already shows that you too heck care and carn be bothered to come for this camp...which also means that you have no responsibility...and how in the world can you be an OGL?!?!?! you jolly well know who the hell you are ok...

and the bottom line is...please have some responsibility if you think you are going to be an OGL...if you don't even have that...just go away...you've disappointed me and wasted my time...i carn even make it home in time to watch my 2 favourite show...Shining Star and CSI...maybe i should not have wasted my time...

and those who already made their promise to me...you better jolly well turn up tommorrow...if not you can forget about being an OGL...your not even fit to be a LEADER!!! don't say OGL...im just disappointed and pissed and feeling stupid at the same time...

im sorry ting and wani if i've said things too generalised and harsh...but hell yeah...im just feeling really fucked up now...

Monday, March 13, 2006

Nanny McPhee!!! @ 10:57 PM

An unforgettably memorable day... =D

When you need me but don't want me...i will stay...
When you want me but don't need me...i will go...

OMG!!! HOLIDAYS!!! @ 10:25 PM

i carn believe its all over...presentation and everything...but i really really hope i can jux pass and go into my dfv...jux a D will do...please...pretty plz...sherlyn and bhakta are 2 of my favourite teachers...along with many others...i really hope they will let me pass please...i wanna go my DFV...>.<

All the best to WANI!!! good luck!!!

argh!!! @ 1:25 AM

freaking idiotic...y carn i burn the freaking cd??? y carn the freaking clip not botch it up??? y must everything screw up at the very last minute??? i wanna get my beauty sleep please...oh god...help me please...

Sunday, March 12, 2006

owww... @ 1:00 PM

my head hurts...so does my jaw...i dunno y...>.< dam...i fear tomorrow and the day after...i fear for my life...hur hur...i don't wanna go for presentation...it sux...i dunno how to even present my portfolio...omg...still must label everything and mount on black paper...omg...eeee...mon mux carry so many things... n canot fit in bag sum more...how to carry...and wear formal how to carry bagpack sia...look dam kuku sia...so i shall stick to sling bag...but how 2 carry 1 laptop, 1 A3 clear folder, 2 plastic files which i think is A3 size oso if im not wrong...omg...i dun even have a bag which can fit A3 file...n that clear folder is dam heavy...my portfolio...alot of papers inside...even the black papers inside itself is heavy liao sia...omg...maybe i have to carry many plastic bags...eeewww...looks kuku also...arhhH!!! omg...i really dunno how sia...wear formal sum more...nightmare begins..

song in my head... @ 1:20 AM

Artist: Simple Plan
Song: Perfect

Think back and talk to me
Did I grow up according to plan?
And do you think I'm wasting my time doing things I wanna do?
'Cuz it hurts when you disapprove all along

And now I try hard to make it
I just want to make you proud
I'm never gonna be good enough for you
I can't pretend that
I'm alright
And you can't change me

'Cuz we lost it all
Nothing lasts forever
I'm sorry
I can't be perfect
Now it's just too late and
We can't go back
I'm sorry
I can't be perfect

try not to think
About the pain I feel inside
Did you know you used to be my hero?
All the days you spend with me
Now seem so far away
And it feels like you don't care anymore

And now I try hard to make it
I just want to make you proud
I'm never gonna be good enough for you
I can't stand another fight
And nothing's alright

'Cuz we lost it all
Nothing lasts forever
I'm sorry
I can't be perfect
Now it's just too late and
We can't go back
I'm sorry
I can't be perfect

Nothing's gonna change the things that you said
Nothing's gonna make this right again
Please don't turn your back
I can't believe it's hard
Just to talk to you
But you don't understand

'Cuz we lost it all
Nothing lasts forever
I'm sorry
I can't be perfect
Now it's just too late and
We can't go back
I'm sorry
I can't be perfect

'Cuz we lost it all
Nothing lasts forever
I'm sorry I can't be perfect
Now it's just too late and
We can't go back
I'm sorry
I can't be perfect

Saturday, March 11, 2006

Superband!!! @ 11:18 PM

Support the a cappella group!!! Yuan Sheng Dai (O.S.T)!!! haha...though i never heard them sing before...and i doubt anyone else heard before too...but still...support them and let them go into top 14!!! then they will be shown on TV oh Ch U!!! =D

W900i @ 3:44 PM

AHHH!!! i want this phone!!! its so dam nice...OMG!!! but its a 3G phone and its gonna cost a bomb...dammit...and its bigger, fatter, and heavier than my present phone...and my present phone is big and fat and heavy already...>.<

Friday, March 10, 2006

Stupid robot... @ 12:05 PM

if u r jux a freaking robot...den jux shut the fuck up...robots haf no feelings...and we human have feelings...we can feel sadness, anger, hurt, pain and everything else...so if u carn understand how we humans feel...jux fuck off...bleh...go tighten ur screws...ur getting loose man...jux go away...

... @ 12:12 AM

stop being such a fucked up shyt...u alrdy noe the truth and d whole truth alrdy...y do u still hafta make ppl so miserable and upset??? wads wrong wif ur own life man...jux shut the fuck up...perhaps ur existance is wad makes everybody upset...BLEH...

Wednesday, March 08, 2006

Nothing... @ 11:27 PM

Nothingness is pure boredom...Boredom kills people...boredom can lead to evil doings...people are led astray because of boredom...having absolutely nothing to do is very dangerous...i should get a new hobby soon...if not im not gonna survive the holidays...hur hur...holidays gonna be a big headache...maybe i should start saving up money and go to arcade every other day...and kill my eardrums...hur hur...

wth... @ 11:14 PM

wah seh...i wrote d post den got sumthing kuku wif it...sian...lazy rewrite everything...shall summarise...my presentation is on mon at 10.45am sia...so i'll officially be free at 11am...but wad am i supposed 2 do after dat sia...ting , serene and wani oso haven finish sia...ting and serene after me...i think 3 plus den finish...and wani best sia...she is d last person on the last day...which is tues...she gt 1 less day of holiday...lol...and if the ogl camp still remains on the 14-16th..wani is gonna miss the 1st day sia...>.<

oh my goodness... @ 11:08 PM

OMG...my presentation on mon!!! and its at 10.45am...>..

Monday, March 06, 2006

Memories... @ 11:57 PM

ahh...i've been kinda lazy 2 do rice sack masking today...so after i watched d 9pm
show...which is a dam nice show i think...d gal very cute sia...if d song is she sing wan
sia...which i dun think so...she can go b singer liao sia...and she can play d erhu...
back to after d show...i went to do a little masking den felt dam sian alrdy...n my eyes
still hurt...and nw i carn even control the mouse properly...my hand kinda stiffed
up...dammit...and so...i went to take out sum stuff that i kept frm sec skool days...some
letters and scraps of papers and stuff...hur hur...

i even kept sum stuff that i was not supposed 2 keep i think...the crazy stuff that we do in
class...like 'chatrooms'...writing conversations on foolscrape papers... =D and i saw one
piece of paper that made my drop a tear...though i carn rmb exactly which day that was
written...and though its only a few words written on it...it meant the world to me...it was
a time of distress for me if im not wrong...moreover that paper was slipped under my book
when it was after skool...and i din even see it being hidden dere...hur hur...i rmb feeling
very touched at that moment which i opened the slip of paper...

but anyway...i carn help but think of sec skool days...where all i could remember was all
the fun i had...although now is just as fun...but its jux kinda different...back then...it
was lyk a more innocent, happy-go-lucky attitude...haha...although i guess i didn't really
change that much...i still have that devil-may-care, rebellious and in-your-face attitude in
me...haha...

i guess this was cultivated since i was very young...even in kindergarden...i used to be
looking out for my sis...and even though she was 2 years older den me...haha...i rmb even
fighting wif my klasmate when i was in K1 i think..haha...pushed a gal off the swing...i
guess every teacher will curse the day they had to teach a student lyk me...n i guess i nvr
liked teachers anyway...i used to have a silly thought that if i made the teachers really
really angry with me...they could just disappear from my sight...hur hur...

and i always protect my friends and look out for them...somehow...haha...and that got me
into lotsa troubles too...lol...i guess the 1st big mistake was back in sec 2 i think...i
was in this grp of friends...kinda like a big group...7 or 8 of us...and i kinda did
sumthing bad...and this thing which i did...come to think of it now...its quite stupid and
silly...but well...i did it back then...and it was to take so called revenge on someone else
for 1 of my close friend...and somehow...it kinda backfired...n implicated 3 of them...i
felt really bad...but...somehow...it kinda tore us apart...n i din really feel close to them
after all that happened...although dey make it feel as though nth happened...but somehow i
know...that was the very first time i felt really really torn and hurt...i cried for days
and days...haha...guess i could have collected enuff tears to wash my whole house...
somehow that was one of my darkest periods of my life...and i thot i could nvr stand up and
face the world anymore...but...i held on till sec 4 i think...sec 3 we were still okie...we
still kinda hang out i guess...i think it was sec 4 when one period i did not hang out wif
then that often...cox of sum stuff that happened...and i had no choice but to not hang out
wif them that often...so mayb there was a misunderstanding...im not 2 sure...but after
awhile we totally ceased contact...i guess...and to the point of avoiding each
other...haha...

and i think i made some ppl feel very awkward...somehow...i felt awkward too
sometimes...looking at the people who once were my friends but ceased to talk after
awhile...i feel a sense of regret...haha...anyways...im thankful for what i am, where i am
and who i am now...

anyways...i think my sec 4 days were still the best...though it has many ups and downs...i
can never forget all the fun we had...haha...how i wish life could only be filled with
happiness and it would be perfect...there would be no such thing as tears and sadness
then...how i wish happiness would last forever...

i guess i will be able to survive the many obstacles and wear and tear of time with people
like smellybelly and all the people around me to stand alongside me...=D i have alot to
thank for...but i wanna thank smellybelly for surviving all the years of abuse and still
stay by me...haha...THANK YOU!!! =D i hope our friendsip will last for a very long
time...and will become stronger the years to come...and i hope u will be stronger too...and
u will be able to withstand everything that is thrown at you...and u will emerge stronger
too...i'll always be by your side to support you and give you encouragements...cox u can
always count on me whenever u meet wif any difficulties...i'll try my best to bring a smile
to ur face and cheer you up...=D

i guess this is more or less my life story...haha...kinda short alrdy i guess...i've shortened everything and i think i shall go mask more rice sack now...i've only done 33 out of 75...>.<

oh my eyes... @ 2:03 AM

omg...i've been staring at the laptop for at almost 12 hours straight except to eat lunch and dinner...oh my goodness...my eyes hurt dam bad...n i feel really giddy...dammit...i sure hope this works man...or else i can really go bang wall alrdy...i think i;ve jux increased my degrees for my eyes...shyt man...masking every single frame of the freaking rice sack...wtf...>.< and poster no done...haiz...my ear feels weird 2...omg...

Saturday, March 04, 2006

omg... @ 9:08 PM

omg...i carn even get any freaking idea of how 2 do the fucking poster for the rice sack...im gonna pay anyone hu can give me an idea of how 2 do a poster for d jumping rice sack...help me!!! >.<

=) @ 1:08 AM

haha...being boh liao again...n dis shall be d last post 4 2nite den i go slp liao...din realise its 1am liao...but im forcing myself not 2 go slp although im super tired and sleepy...hur hur...im being kuku sia...blah...i guess the stress of studio project is showing alrdy...haha...feeling depressed 4 no reason...that sux...omg...im slipping into depression again...die...hur hur...dis always happens whenever i feel stressed...dammit...i hate studio projects...argh....

sian... @ 12:58 AM

im bored and im lazy 2 slp...so i can only come blog boh liao stuff...i dunno y we have fan naos...and i think its weighing everybody down...hur hur...i myself dunno y im feeling irritated at tyms...n i think i've got mood swings...thats so bad man...i gt a feeling i gt depression...hur hur...>.<>.<

me... @ 12:31 AM

i guess the only thing im good at is sticking out for my friends and standing up for them when i see that they are being treated unjustly...and i myself can't bear to look at them when they are sad...i will feel sad for them and cry even if the problems does not even concern me...but since thay are my friends...they are like a part of me...a piece of my flesh...i feel their pain...i could understand how they feel...even if i don't i'll still try to make them feel better no matter what...i only want to see my friends smile...and not cry...if only i could bring a smile to your face everyday...and not see you ever cry and be sad again...cause it hurts me too...

this was written in my other blog actually...mayb its because of this inside me that caused me to be in deep trouble when i was in sec 1 or 2...carn rmb when...haha...only rmb my name was written in some offence book wif the discipline master...haha...n made a big hoo-haa in class...blah...i hope i won repeat my mistake again...n i hope i won pull my frens in 2... =(

Friday, March 03, 2006

-.= @ 11:49 PM

freaking dam sian...i totally have no idea how im gonna do my poster and my title page...this sux...and i've gotta reshoot my whole dam freaking clip...and my tyming oso sux...argh...its d same as i haven start any shyt lah...arh fuck...i need sum1 wif creativity 2 give me ideas man...im sooo gonna die 4 dis sp...dammit...

@ 3:48 PM

Beach... @ 3:08 PM

the beach is such a beautiful place...it bring peace into our hearts and minds...it makes us forget everything that is on our mind and make us feel as though we are in another world...although it was for a moment...it'll always be etched into my heart and mind forever...everything that you have done for me...and everything we did together...will last forever...it will never be faded away with time...it will only become stronger as it last through time...i hope u will stay happy always...do not let any troubles and difficulties let u feel down...i'll always be here to give you a hand to pull you up if you should ever feel that you are going down...

'Every obstacle presents an opportunity to improve our condition'

Thursday, March 02, 2006

part 2... @ 11:07 PM

and now...2 con't wif my scolding saga...and standing up for my fren...the fuck ass guy...ur jux lyk a disgusting piece of junk...u think ur soooo smart and clever...plz go look at a mirror...ur jux an unsightly gay ass shyt...i dun sae im pretty or anything...i dun think i am in the 1st place...but i at least i noe what i do is rite...and i dun go around acting lyk i dun care...i stick up for my friends...and i dun do gui gui shui shui stuff...i dun go blog bout how i love this person and den expect love in return...if u haf sent out signals and u dun get anything back in return??? den plz dun be so thick-skinned...it just mean the person dun love u can?!?! dun u get it??? now i say it in ur face so u can understand...u r jux so timid that u have 2 express ur love in the blog??? and u dun even dare to stand up for ur own rights...is not that she dun wanna say...is cox u ALL DUN GIVE HER THAT CHANCE!!! u all purposely make it such that she can only say yes and carn reject...u noe how hard it is to be forced 2 do things against ur own will??? it is exactly what ur parents do 2 u when u dun do things the way ur parents want them to be...its nagging...and im sure u all noe how irritating it is...so jux plz get a life...and stop bugging her...u will only make her more pissed off...and since she carn even show a long face infront of u all...im sure she gonna blow up if she could...jux get away frm her...and gif her some air...she carn even breathe or rather dun even dare breathe infront of u all cox of all the pressure and shyt u doing 2 her...if u think u r still her fren...GET AWAY AND GIF HER BREATHING SPACE!!! u all gonna suffocate her lyk dis...so much for being frens...lyk shyt...u think acting blur is gonna do everybody good??? no way man...u jux hurting her deeper and deeper...if u r still a guy...stand up and be a man than...stop being a fuck ass...

oh goodness... @ 10:22 PM

u r sooo making everybody feel dam awkward...r u a man??? u r a fucking idiot can...dis is my blog so i can scold all the vulgar language i wan...dis is becox...u all make my best fren out o what she is not...n by saying this...im helping my best fren...u all have let her feel so hurt inside...n u all think all dis is fun??? u all think by sabo-ing ur fren is fun?? n constantly pressuring her??? u can nvr feel how she feels...this is bcox u are NOT BEING HER FREN AT ALL!!! dun u fucking get the idea?!?! u PRETEND to be her fren...and all u ever do is make her sad and uneasy...y carn u give ppl some breathing space??? a fren is supposed to support and give encouragements to one another...and wad do u ever do?!?! jux gif her more stress and add on 2 her troubles and giving her more headaches?? u call that being a fren??? u r being so hypocritical...if u r jealous for dunno wad shyt...and jux feel lyk putting other ppl dwn...plz go bang a wall...or if better yet...go grab a knife and stab urself...or u could jux take that knife u plunged into my fren's back out and stab urself over and over again...cox u ain't being very kind...COX ALL U DO IS BRING PPL MISERY!!! jux get the fuck out of ppl's life...and all will be well...jux go stick ur head in a hole man...ur face jux sux the crap out of ppl's life...get a life...ur not fit to even be around any human beings...cox u act lyk u did no shyt wrong and blame it on my fren...wad kind of fucking nonsense is dat??? can u plz go think over wad u did 2 her...if u dun noe...i could bash some sense into u...and no...dun try 2 act all kind and innocent...it ain't gonna make anybody feel beta...u will only make ppl feel worse...stop freaking add on to her troubles...i am saying all these as HER FRIEND...and so i have a right to say what i think is doing her justice...cox i carn bear to see my friend being hurt and abused...it hurts me 2...u won be able to feel it cox u ain't nobody's frens at all...fuck off...

Wednesday, March 01, 2006

ooh... @ 2:15 PM

and im not gonna go skool tomorrow and friday...that explains the no skool title in my previous post...

no skool!!! =D @ 1:57 PM

hur hur...i've got good news...and bad news...firstly...they extended the studio project by 4 days...including 2 days are wkends...this is good news and bad news...the days of presentation was actually 9th&10th...which is thurs and fri...den after dat we could be free alrdy...with the wkend...

BUT now!!! dey freaking told us that the thurs and fri which was supposedly our presentaion days...is changed to free access to the animation rooms!!! wtf...and den the following wk on mon and tues then is the freaking presentation...so we have to tahan for 2 more days!!! lyk wtf??? den is lyk 13th&14th?? which means it coincides with the OGL camp on the 14th-16th??? no way im going camp in formal...and i sooo got a feeling they gonna shift the OGL camp to 15th-17th instead...that totally sux big time...WTF!!! i've got a date on that day!!! =(