sometimes...nobody understands what im thinking and feeling inside...its not that i don't wanna say...i can't express myself in words...i don't wanna say the wrong thing...im not gonna hurt anyone anymore...its ok if im hurt...im used to it...some things are better left unsaid...action speaks louder than words...and thankz for understanding if i do crazy stuff at times...esp sudden breakdowns...haha...your actions meant everything to me...though i hope it wont happen again...but sometimes i take news too seriously...maybe hopefully it wont be as bad as i imagined??? i don't wanna let you know the real reason cause you may think im some crazy sicko person...haha...bt in actual fact...im a very sentimental person...you can bring me to tears easily...but i'll try to remain strong...people may think im weak...but well...thats the way i am...every tear only makes me stronger...
the worst things bring out the best in people...
Friday, December 29, 2006
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11:34 PM
damn...why do all the guys i meet nowadays are so depressing and emo??? since when have i become a counceller??? damn...i think i've said enough...i don't know what more encouraging words i can say liao...anymore it's gonna sound like im preaching or something...damn...i wasting my time trying to pacify and comfort you all but im just wasting my time!!! ARGH!!! PLEASE STOP PESTERING ME!!! 24 hours is already not enough time for me and you keep talking...blahh blahh blahh...i shall block you all one day...ROAR!! if only my Mac has the latest version of live messenger...i can appear offline and tok to the ppl i want to talk to only...GRRR!!!
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1:15 AM
haiz...today is quite depressing somehow...but well...im still thinking of a new script...and i think the story is stupid...sian...if only i have someone to help me think of the story and write it out...then i don't need to think so much...now all i think about is all the homework...and test...i haven even started studying...if i could pass without even studying then thats good man...holidays is no time for study or work man...i need motivation....lost all my hopes and motivation to work hard already... =(
Thursday, December 28, 2006
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1:40 AM
dammit...my back pain since dunno wad time...i think around 5 or 6pm sia....omg...super pain...sit awhile liao i cannot even stand up straight... =( i think just now i sit on the floor and pack my clothings for too long liao...sian...nw still pain....die....ltr i cannot sleep in peace liao...and i don't even feel like going to sleep any sooner...cause i don't even feel tired...maybe cause i think too much or im under alot of stress sia...think of all the homework cannot sleep liao...=/
miss you ...
Wednesday, December 27, 2006
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1:12 AM
IM BACK!!! omg omg omg....im FAT!!! die die die...i put on 3.5kg!!! OMG!!! i should nt have eaten all those delicious food in hk...haha...i ate too much...oh man...i really must eat yong tau fu everyday liao...haha...anyone can please tell me how to lose weight fast??? quick??? =/ pui pui not nice de...even my bro makes fun of me... =(
but thankz ~mui+ and kien for meeting me at the airport...though u all fooled me...and i really believed u all sia...haha...anyway it was a nice surprise...hehe...im really happy sia...finally get to meet u poop...haha...really really glad...its at least 2 wks i last saw u...lol...and i still missed everyone...and i bought alot of tee shirts.... =/ alot of things to say....but if i start...its not gonna end...haha...anyway...maybe some things are better left unsaid...=)
Thursday, December 14, 2006
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9:46 PM
gotta have to wake up in about 7 hour's time...i've gotta go slp soon...can't believe i needa leave so soon...well....i realised i still got alot alot of stuff to do...die...when i come back...im sooo gonna be behind time... =( anyway...just hope can enjoy myself...and not think about my work so much...and my script just got rejected again...lol...and my stomach hurt badly!!! cause of SERENE!!!! make me laugh so much!!! damn cold lahhhhh....freezer...=/
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9:41 AM
gonna miss lots of people....and today is the last day of school...hope it'll be fun...yea...
Tuesday, December 12, 2006
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10:59 PM
gotta wake up early tomorrow sia....sian...
Monday, December 11, 2006
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10:11 PM
im gonna go hong kong in like a few days time...=/ haha...so fast sia....and then im afraid i won't have time to finish my work....sian....its okay...im gonna chiong when i come back...just don't feel like doing any more work today...today went school to do editting assignment 2...then after me and ting finished...we waited for serene and yani to do finish...they take damn long sia...-.= so me and ting played minesweeper on the com...and i think we were very noisy sia...haha...so lame sia...play until my hand ache sia...haha..then we tried to beat out own record...end up ting beat our record and now the record holder is tt...with a time of 11secs...hahaha...and then went to borrow some dvds...gonna watch them now...=)
this is all wrong...so very wrong...=/ sometimes you just don't get what you want...
ting...get well soon... =) and ~mui+ too... =p hope to see you all get well before i leave for hong kong...lol...
Sunday, December 10, 2006
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10:10 PM
dammit man...my dad don't let me activate the auto roam...wtf lah...why can't i just activate it??? its not like i've gotta pay 50bucks just to activate it right?!?! and you think its fine asking all my friends to message you just so that i can reply them??? even if i give them your number...you think they will message??? im sure they will think twice...wheres the freaking freedom man...and stupid singtel...you told my aunt one thing and told my mum another...hell to you man...and why must 21 years old then can activate the auto roam??? you think we will try to run away before we are 21?? and if we were to...we would not even want to come back right?? or contact the people back here right??? then whats the point of restricting the auto roam?!?! makes no freaking sense man...in that case...i'll probably go get a hi card...at least it has auto roam...and im 18...so im old enough to sign a line...BOOOOO!!!!
Friday, December 08, 2006
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3:26 PM
YAY!!! sisi is back home!!! haha...though at first i didn't much emotions or excitements...but never mind...haha...its cool...7 people againn....and then she bought me alot of stuff too...thankz sisi!!! hehe...3 small tiny shirts for me...LOL...bag, necklaces...haha...
today feels like saturday...cause im not going out and i dodn't do much work...and i had to wake up at 6am today...and den i slept for 4 hours only...and then i feel dead tired now...and some people are irritating me...grrrr....
Thursday, December 07, 2006
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10:04 PM
bored...sian..needa wake up at 6.45am to pick my sis up from airport...so i've gotta sleep before 12 tonight...just 2 more hours away only...=/ and im afraid i got no time to finish my work...haiz....
and no...im not always tired...when im tired its very obvious...zzzzz
Tuesday, December 05, 2006
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9:21 AM
wah seh...this morning like damn freaky sia...i woke up at 8am when the alarm clock rang...but was too tired to wake up so i went back to sleep for abit...then i suddenly jump up thinking i was late...cause i never make snooze...then i look at the time...it was 8.14am...omg sia...ytd i woke up at 8.14am ALSO!!! and it was the same thing!!! i set alarm at 8am, but i went back to slp.. =/ haha...i hope today will turn out fine...
`i don't wanna emo anymore~
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12:16 AM
i feel like shit now...feelings are fading overtime...my eyes can hardly stay open and im forcing it to stay open...damn...
`break up or break down~
Sunday, December 03, 2006
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11:10 PM
yay!!! my palm is recovering fast...hehe...that's nice...anyway it wasn't a very big wound to start with...just that it hurt when i press on it now...hehe...and when i type i cannot rest my wrist on the laptop...lol...hopefully tomorrow will be ok le...=) and nowadays keep having weird weird ppl talking to me...=/
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4:20 PM
hey 0610 peeps...i made a clip for u all..hope u all like it...and if u all want the full quality want can tell me...=/
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1:22 AM
today was a nice day...=) east coast park and roller blading and laughter and pain and food and everything...thanks girls...=) shall send the pics soon...=p and and i witnessed a fight at east coast sia...so scary!!! a group of indians (i think) were confronting each other cause of something that happened nea the waters...then suddenly a guy punched another in the face...and then there was a big hoo-haa...one group started hitting the other group...and they clashed into a nearby tent...innnocent lady kanna also...=/ then later a lady shouted at them and broke them up...the guy that was kanna punched in the face wan damn jialat...he just lay there on the ground never move...think broke his nose...later the other group left liao he was holding a cloth to his nose...and the cloth was bloody sia...then got a lady nearby gave some ice cubes to him...so kind...=) then the group faster pack up and left quickly sia...pretty scary...first time witness such a serious fight...=x
my palm hurts now...the pain spreads...-.= must go clean it up.... touch water the wound damn pain!!!! omg...=(
and thanks aunt for buying the phone for me...=) thank you so much...after i blow up at you a few days ago...and crap...you still treat me so nice....sorry and thank you...
