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Friday, February 29, 2008
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12:11 AM
ahhhh...feeling sad...and depressed...today i suddenly felt like something is wrong with my life...or something bad is gonna happen...graduation is nearing...and in about 3 months' time i'm gonna go aussie for 2 years to study...haiz...can't help but feel that i'm gonna miss everyone and i'll lose contact with all my friends... ='(
i miss you
Monday, February 25, 2008
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2:13 AM
haha...i just realised that Swinburne's intake is in July...not in August...dammit...1 month earlier than i thought...cheat my feelings... it's weird that I still go check your blog everyday even though i know that you've gone overseas...haha...blahhh... horrible days leading up to fusion show...
Saturday, February 23, 2008
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1:36 AM
i'm beginning to regret something. but i can't. i'm gonna die within 2 weeks.
Thursday, February 21, 2008
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12:30 AM
iap presentation down namecard, portfolio & website to go...tmd....argh... hey friend, are you okay?
Monday, February 18, 2008
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11:09 PM
recently i've been quite stressed...there's so much work to do and sometimes i just wished that i didn't have to do the graduation show...if only this was like other courses where there isn't a graduation show...then i won't feel this way...i've been super drowsy these few days and i know that it's because of the lack of sleep...and now i have to take this medication that will make me damn drowsy...but if i don't take it...i'm gonna itch like hell and scratch myself raw...argh...itch like hell or force my eyes open? i feel damn invisible
Sunday, February 17, 2008
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1:19 AM
My sis can be so dumb/naive sometimes. Today while on the way to my maternal grandmother's house, we were chatting about something and then it led to SOS and morse code. Then my sis said something that SOS is something like sis: dot dot doooooot me: is not dot dot dooooooot...it's dot dot dash lah... piangs...damn bth...sometimes the things she say i really speechless...my mum laugh until tear sia...lol...
Friday, February 15, 2008
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12:50 AM
Went to Seoul Garden to have dinner with ting, serene, yl, yani and jy...and i have stomachache now... I think i didn't cook the food properly....it's damn ex sia...almost 30 bucks...tsk tsk... and V-day is the only day where you can carry a whole bouquet of roses and no one really stares at you...but i stare at them...haha...i was looking to see what unique roses the guys will give to the girls...lol...well...i saw a bunch of blue roses...looks quite special sia...lol...and a bouquet of small bear soft toys made into a bouquet...hahaha...looks weird sia...LOL...there was the rare white roses also...haha...and some random kinds of flowers...kinda felt like i was shopping in Botanic Gardens...lol... there was this weird lesbian couple that kept staring at our table while we were in Seoul Garden...wonder why...and serene say she saw them before...must be they also remember her...haha... i know how it feels like ... to be down in the slums...snap out of it stupid girl...it's no use...the other party doesn't even give a damn anyway...
shit...i might be on to something...there's rashes over the whole of my torso...dammit...i gonna see a doc... =(
Wednesday, February 13, 2008
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10:10 PM
If people who are in love say that everyday is like valentine's day, then why create valentine's day to make the singles feel depressed? if you can't be with the one you love love the one you are with
Tuesday, February 12, 2008
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10:59 PM
argh. so fucking depressing. i did something stupid. and i feel so damn bad. freaking hell, how could i have done this to anyone. does all guys think that all girls like soft toys? gosh. another stupid valentine, i was just asking for trouble. shite. i wished everything was more straight forward. i'm so freaking bad at rejecting. i'm sorry cause you are the 1st one.
Monday, February 11, 2008
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12:35 AM
Well, I woke up at 6pm just now and wasted away today. Wonder if I should be sleeping later on. But, I don't think I will be feeling tired anytime soon and I have work tomorrow. Think my body clock is screwed up already. Since this morning, I have been having this nagging feeling inside and I felt pretty weird. And then just now, while chatting online, I realised something. It was a premonition for something bad that is going to happen in the near future I guess. It was something I never thought would happen. But, I guess it is gonna happen anyway. From the looks of it, it might just distant us. And I can't do anything about it, not even talk about it. I'm kinda disappointed. With this adding on to my stress, I'm gonna implode soon.
Sunday, February 10, 2008
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7:59 AM
It's 8am and I reached home awhile ago. I have not had any sleep since yesterday, but I don't feel tired at all. Think it's been about 17 hours of no sleep, cause I woke up at 3pm yesterday. heh. That's why I don't know if I should go sleep now. It's damn weird that I'm still awake at 8am. Bus ride from yen-lyng's house was quite fast, probably took about an hour plus only. I have the urge to go out and cycle now. But, I think I should just sleep my day away 'cause I don't know what to do for the rest of today. Noone's visiting and I won't be visiting also. There are quite alot of work to be done by the following Wednesday. 10 prints for portfolio and website and namecard and the poster for that booth. And we need to edit a video to be played on the laptop on the fusion day. Feels a little stressed up. 10 PRINTS?! How to chiong?
Friday, February 08, 2008
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12:50 AM
I just went through some of my old posts on my blog. I don't know why I did that, but I realised something. I did not treat someone as nice as I should had. I take people for granted and then end up regretting it when nothing else could be done to salvage that relationship. It's so unlike me to still be clinging on to nothing. To something that I know could not be reversed or taken back. It was all my fault in the first place. I should stick by my decision. On the other hand, I may have also treated some other people really nice and end up not getting the similar gratitude back. But, it doesn't matter. As long as the relationship does not change. It could change for the better, but not for the worse. Certain things could not be helped. But, oh well, sometimes you wish some things would stay the same and nothing would change so that you can always feel the happiness that lasted only a moment. I wanna relive some things. Let me.
Thursday, February 07, 2008
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5:25 PM
Ever wonder how it will feel like to celebrate a chinese new year without your parents in town? Well, let me tell you. I slept at 5am on new year's day itself, and then I woke up at 3pm. How cool it that? My eldest aunt came and gone. I was still drooling away on my pillow, dreaming about getting more ang baos. But, so far I've only got 1 from my grandmother. My aunts don't wanna give me 'cause they are afraid that I will take my sis's and my bro's ang baos and not give it to them. I WON'T STEAL THEIR ANG BAOS!!! I will only help them to keep it (the money) and give them the ang bao (only) when they come back. Enjoy your Chinese New Year everyone!!
Wednesday, February 06, 2008
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12:21 AM
okay...it's gonna be a damn boring chinese new year this year...cause there's only my aunt and my grandma left at home...everyone else have gone to aussie!!! how unfair can that be...they will be gone for 9 days some more...9 FREAKING DAYS!!! leaving me alone at home...it's not that it's bad...but it's bad because it's CNY period...and it's damn boring cause there's nowhere for me to go or do...can't even jio people out cause they will all be pai nian-ing or having reunion dinner...and i already had my reunion dinner on sunday...think i must have the earliest reunion dinner sia...oh well...i still haven't finish my spring cleaning...it's a chore...and i hope no weird weird relatives come to visit within now till 14th...wait till my parents come back kay?? if not i don't know how to entertain sia... so no chinese new year mood this year... saddest chinese new year ever... and just reminded me that i won't be going vising... NO ANG BAOS!!! NOOOOOO!!! give me ang baos please... drop some from the sky... i need money...
Tuesday, February 05, 2008
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11:28 AM
Cinderella Story Lyrics Artist(Band):Plain White T's Review The Song (5) Print the Lyrics i heard that you've been asking about me. least that's the word on the street i just don't know what to believe why was i dumb enough to leave? i saw you with him today. the boy who took my place. you seemed so much happier with me. but maybe that's just the way i want it to be. but it's just another one of those days the way you made it all feel so right the way you fit into my arms at night i'll remember that feeling for the rest of my life but it's just another one of those days i can't help but feel a little upset about the things you and i never had i had the world, but instead threw it out of the way. now, it's just another one of those days. so, tell me what happens next? its out of my hands, i guess. i just don't know what to believe. why don't you tell me to believe. why did you let me leave? it's not the way it's gotta be. what's wrong with me? why don't you tell me to believe? why did you let me leave? is that the way this has to be? but it's just another one of those days the way you made it all feel so right the way you fit into my arms at night i'll remember that feeling for the rest of my life but it's just another one of those days i can't help but feel a little upset about the things you and i never had i had the world, but instead threw it out of the way. now, it's just another one of those days. idon'twannamissyouanymore
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