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Friday, March 30, 2007
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3:36 PM
keep breathing...i cannot fall back...its not the 1st time this happened...and it always turns out bad...what should i do now...fridays supposed to be fun...my parents come home late...but y i always seem to be staying home when i can have a good nite out...dammit...trying to keep my focus...
Wednesday, March 28, 2007
not-so-original Don't Write Me Off Yet @
6:51 PM
It's never been easy for me to find the words to go along with the melody But this there's actually something on my mind so please forgive these few brave awkward lines since I met you my whole life has changed It's not just the happiness you've brought to me I was living in a dream but somehow you've brought me back and I haven't felt like this since before Serene said "Relax" And Now I know based on my track record I might not be the safest bet All I'm asking you is don't write me off just yet For years I've been telling myself the same old story that I'm happy to live off my so-called former glories But i'm giving me a reason to take another chance now I need you despite the fact that i've never told you And Now I know I've already blown more chances than anyone should ever get All I'm asking you is don't write me off just yet Don't write me off just yet haiz...its all going downhill...
Thursday, March 22, 2007
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1:13 PM
yay! i told my mum the 2 things le...bout me hurting my tailbone and my results...well...my mum say over next few days see how my tailbone...if still very pain...must go x-ray...please please recover....tomorrow please better... =/ my results she say is alrite bah...kay loh...thats all...got things of my chest...its great...feel better...but then still pain...hell yeahhh...
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12:28 PM
WTF!!! damn...im gonna die in pain...i injured whole cycling ytd...cox i was standing up while cycling...then after that the stupid chain just slipped off...and i fell on the bike seat...the stupid sharper end jabbed into my tailbone!!! wtf...and its been hurting ever since...i think today is worse...wtf...i can't even sneeze without cringing in pain...and i can't even run!!! everytime i sneeze...theres this short sharp pain in my tailbone...then it slowly fades off...argh...and this whole morning i've been sneezing...cause its some what normal...i always get morning sighness...argh...and everytime i sneeze...i try to tahan the pain...argh!!! hoWW!!!! i dun wan tell my mummy...cox she sure make a big hoo-haa...go take x-ray all that...but i also dun wan...even sitting straight hurts the shit out of me... =((((((( haiz...i think next wk the ogl camp i really be there to be sai kang only...i can't run around... =( even when i sit down also pain...so i sit liao only can stay seated... =(((( WHY LIKE THAT!!!
Tuesday, March 20, 2007
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11:48 AM
haha...and so this is what i've been doing yesterday...made 3 new furnitures...but then the last one...which is a super tall and heavy cabinet...but i forgot to take the 'before' pictures before my mum and i fixed it up together...so i lazy take the after one also...haha...and then i packed my table...now its lyk less cluttered...haha...spent the whole day...omg...and now my right thumb hurts....so badly...lyk i sprained it or something...but i think its partly cause i've been forcing and pushing the stupid handle of the white drawers to fit nicely...but still doesn't want to lock nicely...then i gave up...ytd it was lyk numb...red and all...now it hurts!!! feels a little swollen..damn...i can't fold my thumb into my palm liao...lyk making 'four' wif my right hand...die...hope tml will be alrite...and i can't even msg properly...cox nee my thumb to sms...then when i press in the phone...it hurtss...lyk a tingling feeling...omg...    
Monday, March 19, 2007
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11:11 PM
why can't i just be nicet o him for once?! dammit...i should shoot myself in my head...im always hurting people around me...esp those who are close to me...haiz...whatever sia...damn bad mood now...somebody to talk to??? =( whennnnsssss the class challletttt?????
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9:51 PM
you quite sucks...don't feel like talking to you...lalala...u really do know how to spoil someone's mood...lalala...you can bring someone up to heaven one minute and throw her into hell the next...hell yeah...
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2:32 AM
lala...damn...was talking to serene just now...then hor...realised i like no life seh...never stayed at chalet or overnite at chalet b4...always got limited by parents...must be home early...11 plus liao start calling...wah seh...damn sian wan sia...ltr class chalet cannot stay also...damn sian sia...haiz...im alreadYYY 18!!!! damn....i should have wished for freedom when it was my birthday...hope this time ask won't get scolding...always i ask if can stay overnite sure tio scolding wan sia...
Sunday, March 18, 2007
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11:07 PM
wah seh...damn tired...and these few days i feel damn bloated...jialat liao...cannot eat so much...i feel lyk im 4 months pregnant...haha...sian...lalala...jux now went IKEA...bought a few stuffs...needa help mum fix up and clear my table...sian...i wan go jalan jalan wan sia...then mummy dun let... -.= aiya...so much things to packkkk...lazy sia...tsk tsk...so much rubbish to clear...haha...
Friday, March 16, 2007
music and lyrics song!!! @
3:58 PM
my toilet!!! @
2:05 AM
 lalala...my whole house is still dusty and dirty and smelly...hahaha...the toilet is erm...weird??? like hotel style...and then not very done yet...the toilet bowl not in yet...haha...so well...wait awhile longer...hopefully tml will be faster...now its an ugly grey of cement...haha...
Tuesday, March 13, 2007
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5:53 PM
it had been a fucking horrible day... i don't even know where to start...don't even want to start...dammit...fucking pissed now...argh...
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11:44 AM
ARGH!!!! damn freaking noisy!!! they hacking all the tiles in my toilet...so its lyk drilling and banging and all sorts of noise...cannot stand it...and now im blasting music into my ears...just to drown out the noise...i think i cannot hear myself talking over all the noise and music also...last few days was my neighbours drilling...cause they rebuilding their rooftop...now my toilet...when is it gonna END?! after my toilet still got my parent's toilet...so now there's like noise, dust, smoke, dirt everywhere...i wanna get OUT!!! BUT!!! i can't bathe!!! there's no water in the house!!! WTF!!! cause they removing the pipe...then must shut off the water suppy into the house...if not the water will spurt everywhere...haiz...why like that wan!!! =((( i wanna go hotel stay liao...kns...noise make me super irritated...argh...and i had to wake up at 8.30am...cause they came early...which is like...i only slept for 5 hours??? arghh....then i went downstairs the hi-fi room to sleep...but then....they were drilling directly above me...how the heck can someone sleep like that??? tsk tsk...HATE NOISE!!! faster hack everything by today....then tomorrow i can have my peace and quiet back...I WANT GET OUT OF THE HOUSE!!!! =((((
Monday, March 12, 2007
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10:23 PM
lalala...watched music and lyrics today...its so cute and funny and touching!!! haha...wanted to watch Paris, I Love You...but then...sold out sia!!! wah seh....nothing much to blog about today also...but poop msged me!!! yay!!! when i watching movie...sorry for that typo... =x missed you sooo much!!! faster get that free incoming card!!! hehe... =p
Sunday, March 11, 2007
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9:58 PM
haven been blogging lately...its not that nothing much to blog...but there's too much...if i start...i can't stop...well...anyway...i shall not start them...been very troubled lately...but there's no one to talk to...well...get irritated easily these few days...damn...mood swing again...haiz...just gotta be careful... and...my toilet is being renovated...sucks...rebuilt the whole toilet...change tiling and toilet bowl...and take away the bathtub...sian...faster finish...its gonna be dusty, dirty, noisy and all...hell man...
Tuesday, March 06, 2007
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12:42 AM
too many things are happening at once...i feel that i can't breathe anymore...starting to emo...shyt...thats y i hate holidays...nothing to do...and i think too much...haiz...i feel too pressurized...on one hand...one is coming on too strongly...one the other hand...the other doesn't even seem to care...or rather...the one that supposed to care...doesn't care much...and the one that is not supposed to care...cares too much...haiz...i still feel that i can't open up to him...there's still this barrier between us...haiz...what should i do???
Monday, March 05, 2007
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11:31 PM
on a lighter note... im glad my dad's chin has stopped bleeding...its getting better i guess..but then he found out he has a bruise on his chest...cause the step kinda jabbed into his chest...ouch...take care dad...
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10:30 PM
jean anne.... don't you realise that you have no one else to depend to anymore??? you are on your own...all these things that you've been through...don't you get it??? don't you know that...sometimes...people and things ain't what they always seems...however true you may be...people may not treat you the same...there's always 2 sides to everyone...you just got to be true to yourself then...if people still treat you with discrimination then too bad...its them...you can't change their perception of you...at least you are true to yourself and thats what matters...you are not pretentious...thats the least you could do...at least you feel good about yourself...thats what matters most...you don't have to worry about people talking behind your back...if you show people your true self...if they still got a problem with that...then let them deal with it themselves... from this moment on...you've got to be stronger and survive this..no matter what happens...cause no one is there for you to fall back on anymore...you've got to stop being so naive...and wake up your idea...nobody is gonna live this life for you...you only got you...only yourself to depend on...nobody is gonna help you up if you fall again...if you don't survive and move on...people are gonna step all over you and move on no matter what...nobody is gonna wait for you... even if you think life is meaningless...just live on for those who need you...be strong...for those who don't even a damn about you...just ask them to fuck off also...
Sunday, March 04, 2007
im so scared!!! @
8:21 PM
=((( im so scared that i almost cried...well...actually i teared...but i held it back...cause my dad fell down after we bought the food...and he fell on the stairs...he cut his chin...and it bled very very badly...its like non-stop flowing...when he stood up..it was like raining...i freaked out loh...and it was on his shirt...then i was like dad!!! its dripping!!! then he took out handkerchief and press it...end up his whole handkerchief was full of blood...throughout the whole thing i was so scared...i dunno what to do...now i know im scared of blood...or rather blood that is dripping and if there's alot...and he keeps saying its alot...but when driving back home...he was only driving with one hand...the other hand pressing against the wound...haiz...now i have no mood to eat...lost my appetite...=((( and he keeps saying its alright...but when he eating...the wound starts overflowing...even though already put plaster...hopefully it stops flowing...i think its a very very deep wound...hope he don't need stitching... =((( oh no...im so scared!!!
Saturday, March 03, 2007
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12:08 PM
fucking pissed...because of what happened yesterday...i woke up on the wrong side of the bed...and then had a big quarrel with my mum and aunt...about the stupid circuit breaker tripping again...so im the bad guy now...whatever sia...its so freaking irritating how you can affect my mood like that...wth sia...idiotic...i just wanna ignore you...just when i thought i've forgiven you...hell... they are so not gonna talk to me for a long long time...argh...damn pissed... [edit] wow...and my mum purposely don't take my fork and spoon during lunch...how wonderful... [/edit]
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